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Is a subjective emotion, an Illusion something that we want to be real, We need that to feel like we have more of a purpose than just populating the earth. like time give us a since of value that is used to make us feel that our days are not long and eternal. we cant see it, we cant touch it, but we can feel it do we not? I too just as any one of you know for a fact that there is a time limit on this life,day by day cell by cell, we are all dying by the minute, falling down a rabbit whole, that yields no results, and to what do we owe this tremendous life for which we are falling? enrichment of the body of the mind,to do that we give away pieces of our selves some of them you can ever get back EVER,does no one find that degrading? undignified, a sacrifice of one peace of mind is not worth that much for what? not self gratification,It all a vile game, of territory, and what we wish to use as a pass time,Platonic love is feasible i believe the love between kinsmen is normal, healthy and harmful it is not. When we mourn a lover we do no mourn them,all we are seeking is that chemical bond, a fix, a warm gun of happiness, be it acceptance,and exchange, or feeling that we belong to someone other than our selves,The very fact that we are all alone in this life, is something that scares the everliving out of us, and the idea of departing here with out having that Ecstasy, That "taste of heaven", really if you wanted to believe it love is also a mere cover for the primal urge to get a release center our selves, "coitus" something all men are sure to think about or should i say boys.Honest i dont see how you could get any more degrading. |
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| 09:11pm 02/04/2007 |
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there may not be a party this weekend at all due to high illness i need to take it down a notch, i feel sick hardcore and believe its because of lack of sleep, and too too much alcohol intake, as fun as it is i might only be having two a month now espcially since the raves are about to start up again kno what im sayin yeah if you need me call me ill be in a dark room resting my eyes. good morning and good night to all , my Juggalo family, im always thinking about you, always. |
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| 10:43pm 15/03/2007 |
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Got a big plan, this mindset maybe its right
At the right place and right time, maybe tonight
And the whisper or handshake sending a sign
Wanna make out and kiss hard, wait nevermind
Late night, and passing, mention it flipped her
Best friend, who knows saying maybe it slipped
But the slip turns to terror and a crush to light
When she walked in, he throws up, believe its the fright
Its cute in a way, till you cannot speak
And you leave to have a cigarette, your knees get weak
An escape is just a nod and a casual wave
Obsessed about it, heavy for the next two days
It's only just a crush, it'll go away
It's just like all the others it'll go away
Or maybe this is danger and you just don't know
You pray it all away but it continues to grow
I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, and close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right
I want to hold you close
Soft breasts, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I want to f*cking tear you apart
Then he walked up and told her, thinking that he'd passed
And they talked and looked away a lot, doing the dance
Her hand brushed up against his, she left it there
Told him how she felt and then they locked in a stare
They took a step back, thought about it, what should they do
Cause theres always repercussions when you're dating in school
But their lips met, and reservations started to pass
Whether this was just an evening or a thing that would last
Either way he wanted her and this was bad
He wanted to do things to her it was making him crazy
Now a little crush turned into a like
And now he wants to grab her by the hair and tell her
I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, and close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right
I want to hold you close
Soft breasts, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
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| 09:24pm 13/03/2007 |
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and today is really the 4th its just somewhere along the line i fucked up my dates on my livejournal so to day is the 4th my birthday is on the 27 and this means, my birth day is in 23 days. also i saw the number 23 just that many days before my next birthday. strange.cesar was stabed 23 times.
september 11, 2001, september is the 9th month of the year 9 plus 11 is 20, 0 is a place holder so take out the 0 and add 2+1that is 3 9+11+2+1=23.
the human consist of 46 chromosomes 23 from each parent.
the earth tilts on its axis at 23 degrees.
lee harvey oswald was taken in to custody on the 23 of november.
the human heart is on a 23 degree tilt.
there are only 23 letters in the latin alphabet.
The atomic number of vanadium is 23.
23 is the smallest prime number having a composite sum of digits.
there are 23 hours and 56 minutes in a sidereal day.
the planet neptune was discovered september 23, 1846.half of 46 is 23.
psalms 23 is the most easily most quoted text from the bible.
In the religion of Discordianism, 23 is considered a holy number.
France has 23 archbishops.
in new york 23rd Street, is shaped as a triangle. This shape caused frequent winds.
Charles Dickens, is the 23rd person sent to the guillotine in a series of executions.
23 was an old Morse code signal used by telegraph operators to mean "away with you.
23 as a cosmic number with strong connections to arcane magic and synchronicity.
2/3 is 666 and there isnt a 23rd chapter in revelation.
Viginti Tres (23) is a song on the album 10,000 Days by Tool.
Composer Alban Berg's self-professed 'number of fate': for example, his 'Lyric Suite' for String Quartet includes a variety of references to 23, including nonstandard metronome markings that are all multiples of 23; each movement is some multiple of 23 measures long, and there are significant structural elements at measures numbered in multiples of 23.
23 is The title of Tristan Prettyman's debut album.
A federal grand jury in the United States consists of 23 members.
Known to be Adolf Hitler's favorite number; he made many decisions based upon the number 23.
Among the white pride community, 23 represents the letter W (the 23rd letter of the alphabet) and is used to indicate pride in being of European descent.
Dr.Pepper has 23 flavors. Dr has two letters in it and Pepper has six.6/2 is 3. 23
pope paul the second was born on febuary 23 1417.
The human physical biorhythm is generally 23 days. |
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| 06:03pm 11/03/2007 |
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i love marilyn manson and otep. and the haunted and velvet acid christ and android lust, and cyclone nine and tool and my ruin,and kittie and and mastadon and dimu borgir. |
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| 08:52pm 09/03/2007 |
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A revolutionary pornstar died today, please if you feel you should try and indulge your self in any mindless means possible, or masterbate in in honor of her honed skill. |
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| RETURN OF RAGE!!!!! |
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| 06:30pm 08/03/2007 |
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mood:  FUCK!!!! music: bulls on parade"RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE
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RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE'S POLITICAL REUNION
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LATEST: Radical rockers RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE only vowed to reunite after realising the "right-wing purgatory" the US has become since they split seven years ago (00). Frontman ZACH DE LA ROCHA, guitarist TOM MORELLO, bassist TIM COMMERFORD and drummer BRAD WILK announced last month (JAN07) they will take to the stage together for the first time since 2000 at the Coachella Valley Music and Arts Festival in California in April (07). And they hope the gig will inspire festival-goers to take stock of GEORGE W. BUSH's presidency. Morello says, "Is it a coincidence that in the seven years that Rage Against The Machine has been away that the country has slid into right-wing purgatory? I think not. "It occurred to all of us that the times were right to see if we can knock the Bush administration out in one fell swoop, and we hope to do that job well." |
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| 02:52am 07/03/2007 |
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this is ganna sound kinda wierd and random, mostly because im in the middle of a relationship and its not over and still really like leona , i've been doing alot of thinking lately and i dont believe in love, its nothing but chemical reaction and imbalances in your brain, that is all it is.
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| 05:21pm 04/03/2007 |
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FUCKING EVERY DAY IS EXACTLY THE SAME!!!!!!! ITS FUCKING BULLSHIT!!! |
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| to all those certain people in mind. |
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| 01:01am 04/03/2007 |
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Caressa - not that you are going to read this you hardly ever get on and yeah its kind of talking shit i guess i dont know i dont think its talking shit if its true. For a very long time i have had it in my head that i was in love with you. And there in lies the problem, i really dont think i want to any more, you no matter what i say or do will not feel about me the way i do about you so i am saying now. i dont want to have a friendship with a wall. im tired of waiting its been too long, yeah i once told you i would wait for you , but im not going to because while i myself and ready for a serious relationship ive realized not many people i know will be and nice guys always finish last so im through with being nice FUCK BEING NICE its not for you and im not going to be any different expect well i wont be nice im tired of having a friendship with a wall and really that is all you have been not to say i cant blame you, you live in colorado but there have been chances to move here and you have through them away like a parking ticket so this is my parking ticket, you will always be important to me and i will always feel for you but it cant rain all the time.
Anthony- dude your like my brother and i love you. and i have only one thing to say.your different from what you used to be and dont tell me its because of jordan, she is responsible for absolutly none of the pain you have been caused. if you really felt the way about her that you say you did you would have been more understanding dont come to me as if im lashing out man like i said i love you, but there comes a time when you either SHIT or get off the pot.
Afromatt- you are my brother, that is all i have to say.
vash- dude your so much more badass then i thought you were to be honest ive always had the hots for your sister. i think you are a good friend we just dont hang out enough, i was really harsh on you when we first met and i hope you can let go of that some day or already have. i think it was just our differences that set us apart, your not yet close enough to be my brother but you are getting closer, im here if you need a wingman fo Sho.
forrest- if you deny the esscence of you being pimp one more time im going to strangle you and then probably beat you with one of my swords and then ill steel your bustersword,and and beat you with that. you too are one of my bretheren.
patrick- dude you were one of my first REAL friends dude we dont have enough time that is for damn sure. and im sorry for being a dick all those times i was one booker was right man chicks and girls dont know what they want and the bond of a brother is always always stronger than that of a girl.
Lauren- sometimes i miss talking to you, and then i remember that whats done is done. i told you just about everything you even know stuff caressa doesnt know and that defenatly means something. im sorrry for saying what i said and shouldnt have said it behind you like that i shouldnt have said it period and for that i am once again sorry for being a dick.
dj-haha let the bygons be bygons.
Leona- your a sweet beautiful girl and im glad we met. im sure we will have an interesting full relationship im not sure what else to say im glad we met.
ashly- your awesome and i wanna hang out with you more, this summer 512 is having at least 3 raves a month we are going to every single one. slow down though you can enjoy life without being high, but i lurve you and cant wait till the next rave.
jaden- your awesome and kool and you play halo and most xbox games i know of, any chick that can talk gameing with me is badass in my book.
nicole- you are an enigmatic character.
rafi- i miss you, you tought me alot and wish you wouldnt have just blown me off as easily but fuck it if you dont like me i dont care, i kind of learned that from you, and to be a little more detailed i think its just because of your EMO boyfriend.
lillie- your a badass, sweet and awesome person if you ever need anything im here and i mean that.
Kristen- you too i miss extremely and wish we had more time for each other, i miss being in art class with you and mala and kahlia and miss lady and the stupid people. but mostly just youi can still remember our first conversation was inbetween ms evans-millers and ms rosses room it was dark and ockward but i like it becuase for a slight moment we had been in an understanding we had just met and we were completely and utterly fragile and just the real us for that 30 minutes open and if you dont call me when you leave i will stalk you.
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| 01:49pm 03/03/2007 |
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mood: again in the mood for a music: just like you imagened "NIN"
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though my first spartan was a failed test subject spartan 002 has proved to be rather fascinating, he is only level 10 and his strength seem to have reached an excessive amount of power. i believe it is 75 while his endurance may be low, he seems to have excelled undoubtedly in the mages guild he is already an arch mage he controls everything in the guild now and has almost no need for armor. it apears i have founds means of tapping the vast and limitless powers to the the imperial consciousness and strength. i look forward to his next entrance into a plain of oblivion yes to see just exactly how limitless his power may be. |
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| 12:01am 24/01/2007 |
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mood: i need a cigarette music: every day is exactly the same"NIN"
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everytthing in falling in place when i start to fall apart what the fuck. it is official i am finally getting my tool package, fucking i paid 70 dollars for a hoodie a wallet a new hat a membership and some bumperstickers and patches and a tool army shirt on july 13 2006 and now in january of 2007 i get it im just glad im getting ive waited long enough and also in the lastest news i got fired on my day off it fucking sucks!!! |
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| 03:08pm 19/01/2007 |
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TOOL concert in sanantonio on march 26th 2007 |
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| 03:53am 05/01/2007 |
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you ever wake up one day and just know life is a trap you can never escape,
the world is a concrete jungle and im falling from the atmosphere.
knowing exactly what stone like branches and iron vines im hitting.
every day is exactly the same, every day is exactly the same.
You know hell isn't some glacier covered terran from which the dark tainted fallen
son sits on his throne, tourtured and twisted from frozen shrapnals, and being turned away from god. hell isnt like in the fairytales.it has nothing to do with fire or brimmstone, hell is created by the pathetic feable mind of man in hope there is something there for the lesser of the human spawn in the genepool. that my after life cant be as bad as the piece of shit pedifile he doesnt deserve the the same fate as me im too good for that. well let me tell you something your a slimmy piece of shit for thinking that because the real test is here on earth, in our physical plane,hell is everything the world throws us into, every thing we throw ourselves into, all the illusions we live in, and deceptions we are breed in, sometimes i wish life would hurry by and then i remember...
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| 12:11am 30/12/2006 |
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not bad my hommy is living with me, i have gears of war, an awesome girlfriend and, im going to ichicon in febuary along with carnival and, also getting my car and or liscence back, what more could a guy ask for. |
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